Can't beleve it!

Well, this is a first! It's almost Christmas and I'm posting on a blog!
This has been quite a year for me. I've been told that I should write my feelings and thoughts down and it will help with the grieving. So, here I am!

You see, we were to have our first grandchild this year(September). In my daughters 22nd week we found out that our granddaughter would not survive. On May 28th, Grace Ann went to be with Jesus. That is one of the hardest things in my life to get over. I have been struggling with this loss for some time. Not only the pain of losing Grace, but the fact that I could't do anything about it. My "little girl" was hurting and I couldn't make it any better.
The holidays have been the hardest. Just thinking about what could have been hurts the most at this time. If I didn't have my church "family"  I don't know how I would have gotten this far! My wife Terry, daughter Leslie and I attended a grief sharing group on surviving the holidays. It was quite helpful and is one reason I am on this blog now. We learned that it is helpful to write down your thoughts and feelings. It is also ok to feel down at times regarding your loss. From now on everything is different and that there is a "new normal" happening in your life. You can't change he past, so you must adjust your life to this new normal. Life will go on!