Christmas weekend

Had a very good Christmas weekend. We spent some time with the godgrandsons, went to their dad's birthday party, spent time with brother-in-law and sister-in-law from Annapolis, saw two movies. I only had a couple moments that the thought of Baby Grace not being here crept in. I'm starting to think that those are just little reminders.
I also was led, by that I mean God directed me, to sing this weekend at Church. I know this to be true because too many things fell into place for this to happen. And, I was told by several people that it's the best they have heard me sing. I don't want this to sound like bragging, but it was good. It just felt right and from the heart. It was the first time I have ever felt so confident on stage. My singing mate, Jill did an excellent job, too. I think she too was led to be there this weekend. We work together pretty good.
Anyway, I had the most wonderful Christmas with family and friends. Don't know what I would have done without them! I love you all!

Grace Ann

Here is the poem I wrote for my granddaughter.

Grace Ann

You were to be the very first

Child of our child

It took awhile for this to happen

But when it did, we smiled

All was good in our world

A grandchild was soon to be

I got the news that fateful morn

“Dad, it’s bad please be with me”

We rushed to be by your mothers side

To comfort and console

There’s nothing we can do

It was all in Gods control

We cried with tears of pain

To never hold you close

The dreams we had

are gone for now

To Heaven you were sent

One day we’ll be together

With Jesus, a Blessed event!

Poopa

Christmas

It's Christmas day and all is good. Spent the morning at the godgrandsons (3). They have been a blessing in our lives. It has been a tremendous help having them in our lives. Their ages are 3, 5, and 9. They certainly keep us on our toes.
I had written a poem about the loss of our little Grace. I framed it and gave it to my daughter and son-in-law for Christmas. Of course we cried. Even tho Grace was not physically here, she is always in our hearts.
I would like to share this poem with all.

Can't beleve it!

Well, this is a first! It's almost Christmas and I'm posting on a blog!
This has been quite a year for me. I've been told that I should write my feelings and thoughts down and it will help with the grieving. So, here I am!

You see, we were to have our first grandchild this year(September). In my daughters 22nd week we found out that our granddaughter would not survive. On May 28th, Grace Ann went to be with Jesus. That is one of the hardest things in my life to get over. I have been struggling with this loss for some time. Not only the pain of losing Grace, but the fact that I could't do anything about it. My "little girl" was hurting and I couldn't make it any better.
The holidays have been the hardest. Just thinking about what could have been hurts the most at this time. If I didn't have my church "family"  I don't know how I would have gotten this far! My wife Terry, daughter Leslie and I attended a grief sharing group on surviving the holidays. It was quite helpful and is one reason I am on this blog now. We learned that it is helpful to write down your thoughts and feelings. It is also ok to feel down at times regarding your loss. From now on everything is different and that there is a "new normal" happening in your life. You can't change he past, so you must adjust your life to this new normal. Life will go on!